Saturday, August 28, 2010

its from korean

I have a boyfriend who grew up with me. His name is Jin. I always thought of him as a friend until last year, when we went to a trip from a club. I found that I fell in love with him. Before that trip was over, I took a step and confessed my love for him. And soon, we became a pair of lovers, but we loved each other in different ways. I always concentrated on him only, but by his side, there were so many other girls. To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I was just another girl…

“Jin, do you want to go watch a movie?” I asked.
“I can’t”
“Why? You need to study at home?” I felt disappointment grabbing me.
“No… I am going to meet a friend…”

He was always like that. He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing. To him, I was just a girlfriend. The word ‘love’ only came out from my mouth. Since I knew him, I had never heard him say ‘I love you’ before. To us, there weren’t any anniversaries at all. He didn’t say anything from the first day and it continued till 100 days…200days… Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a doll, everyday, without fail. I don’t know why…

Then one day…

Me: Um, Jin, I …
Jin: What…don’t drag, just say..
Me: I love you.
Jin: ……you….um, just take this doll and go home.
That was how he ignored my ‘three words’ and handed me the doll. Then he disappeared, like he was running away. The dolls I received from him everyday, filled my room, one by one. There were many…
Then one day came, my 15th year old birthday. When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him, and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call. But… lunch passed, dinner passed… and soon the sky was dark… he still didn’t call. It was already tiring to look at the phone anymore. Then around 2am in the morning, he suddenly called me and woke me from my sleep. He told me to come out of the house. Still, I felt joy and I ran out happily.
Me: Jin…

Jin: Here…take this…
Again, he handed me a little doll.
Me: What’s this?
Jin: I didn’t give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it to you now. I’m going home now, bye.
Me: Wait, wait! Do you know what today is?
Jin: Today? Huh?
I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my birthday. He turned around and walked away like nothing had happen.Then I shouted… “Wait…”
Jin: You have something to say?
Me: Tell me, tell me you love me…
Jin: What?!
Me: Tell me
I put my pathetic self behind and clung on to him. But he just said simple cold words and left.
“I don’t want to say…that I love someone so easily, if you are desperate to hear it, then find someone else.”
That was what he said. Then he ran off. My legs felt numb… and I collapsed to the ground. He didn’t want to say it easily… How could he…. I felt that… Maybe he is not the right guy for me…
After that day, I stranded myself at home crying, just crying. He didn’t call me, although I was waiting. He just continued handing me a little doll every morning outside my house. That’s how those dolls piled up in my room… everyday

Sunday, August 22, 2010

hoping she answer someone

early in the morning,she wake up and staring at the window in front of her bed! she whispered to herself that todays going to be her world and she start her wonderful day with sweet smile!then she take a white towel hanging at the cupboard and walk to the bath room! along the corridor she think what shes going to do? yeah attending the lecture of cos cannot miss it out! then she think again what shes going to wear? baju kurung but which one? the green one,black two,or purple three... hahaha.... she wear the green one! after subuh, she switch on her table lamp and sit tidely.look oytside the window and take a deep breath! recite doa first then she start to study! 7.15 am already and she ready to go to lecture hall. and everything start!!

when she walk along the walk way, someone was watching her! that someone saying in his heart "u are goin to be mine today!"

she meet her friends and greet them with big smile! lecturer come in and start their lesson without think bout other late student! and that someone was one of them! but its still normal things to be late attend the class and people have their own time to manage!

someone was sitting at the back of she!

at the end of the day, she walk alone going back room. and someone come close to her and stand infront of her now.

would u be my future girlfriend?

she said: what kind of question?

some one said: im waiting for ur answer!

she said: i dont know who u are?

someone said: im begging u to answer my question!

she said: im sorry!

someone said: im waiting for ur future answer!

she start walking leave someone at the back!

someone just watch her with hope that she would turn back and give the answer!


still hoping she would answer someone!

Sunday, August 15, 2010

first story

hari yang mendung! dari tingkap bilik sudah nampak hujan renyai2 dekat luar! dalam hati masing2 berharap agar apa yang dirancang hari ini akan berjalan lancar walaupun cuaca tak berapa baik! mungkin itu nikmat yang Dia kasi agar kita sume gembira! jam dah nak dekat pkol 9am...sms bertalu2 masuk dalam phone! tanya dah siap ke?nak pegi pkol bpe? cepat siap yer! baik! finally for the first time thra siap awal dan sgt berpuas hatilah dengan penampilan hari mendung! hahaha...pengkritik terhebat pown tak ade! bgus2! thra pergi dekat B4 tunggu misha dengan shafiqah!

bila suma dah berkumpul dlm bas baru bas jalan!
tapi....spe yang pergi? pergi maner? hahaha actly kami bercadang nak pergi pulau! bukan pulau kapas yer, pulau pinang! naik feri oww.. yang pergi Helmi sebagai ketua rombongan diikuti farhan,farid,sazali,syukery,thra,misha,shafiqah,ali dan abu!!! kiteorang naik bas nak pergi kepala batas sebab situ ade bas yang pergi jeti! tapi....bas yang kami naik tuh pergi letak kami dekat bas stop yang kami pown tataw dekat mner! huh? turun2 je hujan lebat kowt! kiteorang kene lintas pergi seberang sne yang ade pekan kecil! kecil la sangat! sedih sangat sebab kami free2 je kene mandi dengan air hujan!gedebush!bila dah lintas helmi pergi cari mner stesen bas yang terdekat yang kononnyer ade stesen bas lah! adoi..then kami pown jalan lah kebelakang bangunan yang kononnyer boleh tembus pergi stesen bas! jalan berlari jalan berlari jalan mati! woi...dah la hujan! kiteorang jalan dalam hujan hanya mengharapkan baju dan payung sekangkang kera yang helmi bawak wane coklat! helmi bawak payung?? hahaha jalan rapat2 bajet sume dapat la berteduh dari hujan gne payung tuh!hampeh!! tengok2 kiteorang smpi balik dekat bus stop yang kiteorg turun td! tak ke boo....tetiba2 sorang menjerit dalam hujan "eh tu bas yang pegi kailan!kailan ade bas pegi jeti!" tahan2...tapi ta lintas lagi! ah bedal je la labu...berlari-lari dapatkan bas! masing2 dah basah kuyup! make up misha yang tebal 1inci pown dah cair! hahaha....masuk je bas lega....dapat duduk! huhuhu....rambut budak laki dah tak terpacak sebab kene hujan kecuali syuk sebab dia pakai topi!

nampak tak baju dh basah!